Hi @MJ ,
...So where can i get it or what can i do instead?
Download here: Microsoft® SQL Server® 2012 Express
Follow steps as this to install sql2012: how-to-install-sql-server-2012-express-on-windows-server-2012
And then I recommend you follow this tutorial to connect the sqlserver after the installation: lesson-1-connecting-to-the-database-engine
BTW, you can free download SQL2019 to have a test. And you can also try to google SQL Server installation tutorial in YouToBe if you are instrested in.
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